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This is where I pay attention. Some of it is about training. Most of it is about the rest of life — the season I’m in, the questions I’m sitting with, the small things I notice on a run. Nothing here is finished. It’s a record of doing things a little more intentionally, kept in the order they happen.

April 27, 2026Taos, NM

Passing Clouds

Sitting out front, in my “spot” on the ground,
back against the house that is perfectly
angled into the morning sun.

I’m observing a lot.

  • The way the clouds move and reveal the sun periodically
  • The extra chatty birds (maybe because it’s earlier?)
  • A feeling of “silence” despite that — hard to explain but acutely aware of the lack of human noise and the absence of my own voice. It makes me want to be silent the rest of the day.
  • How quickly my face goes from feeling chilly in the clouds to an intensee feeling of warmth from the strength of the rays
  • Breathing feels light, easy, and clear
  • The clouds are moving so slowly today
  • The feeling of wanting to rush the clouds so the sun will hit the next open patch sooner
  • Why do I want the sun?
  • The differences in cloud sizes and shapes and transparencies. Sometimes it’s only hidden for 30 seconds, sometimes 10 minutes. Sometimes some rays still shine though and cast a softer warmth
  • Tying this all back to the metaphor of thoughts as clouds passing
  • I don’t think I’ve ever felt this calm doing nothing. I don’t want to be anywhere but here.
  • I checked the time. Thought I’d be on a run by now. The loose feeling inside of me has tightened. But I have no schedule today. I can run at any hour. I can stay here.